HERE INSIDE I LIKE METAL


I have been wearing the fuck out of my "Sleep Now in the Fire" playlist. I originally put it together as a going-to-sleep aid (hence the name), but eventually, it became the soundtrack to my October stint of London living. And now, coming off the high of NIN/JA mania, it's pretty much all I can listen to (though, I will say, it doesn't sound quite as perfect as it did on those hungover autumn days, despite the fact that current NY weather is doing its best to mimic the UK mood). It's basically With Teeth abbreviated and amplified:

"Dawn of the Dead" - Does It Offend You, Yeah?
"Sunspots" - NIN
"Love is Not Enough" - NIN
"All the Love in the World" - NIN
"Beside You in Time" - NIN
"Right Where it Belongs" - NIN
"The Four of Us are Dying" - NIN
"Cry Little Sister" - Gerard McMann
"No Shelter" - RATM
"Sleep Now in the Fire" - RATM
"Testify" - RATM
"Guerrilla Radio" - RATM
"Calm like a Bomb" - RATM

I can't stress enough how much I love With Teeth. I think I made the Rubins nuts over the weekend, threatening to kick some Trent ass each time Ilan unveiled the setlist. The two shows that I saw included one song off the album - "The Hand that Feeds," which, while awesome, is hardly my favorite. Of course, T. Rez decides to throw in "Right Where it Belongs," aka my RINGTONE (oh man, I'm a nerd), last night, when I was slipping in and out of consciousness in my living room. (No really, I was like, sleep texting - Aaron IMed "guess what song they're playing right now" and my response was... "where?" Ovv).

The shows were absolutely amazing anyway - I always knew Ilan was an incredible drummer having seen him with the 'Prophets all those times, but watching him play shit like "Wish" and "March of the Pigs" took it to a whole other level. I was in awe. Other things that had me in awe: sitting next to Debbie Harry and Chris Stein in catering at PNC and standing onstage behind Daisy of Love at Jones Beach. I am ashamed that those two experiences are in the same category.

Anyway, after the excitement of last week (five nights of Art Brut followed by these two NIN/JA gigs), this week feels like a bust. I'm tired. I'm bored.

Speaking to me right now... words of wisdom from Jane's (pictured above):

I chip away
'Cause I'm not ok
So I
I chip away
Poked a hole right into myself
And inside I found someone
Who said I was ok
Still I don't feel easy

As an addendum:

Wow, look at the difference 15 years makes:





The power is most definitely still there... its just the danger thats gone.

And for one last fuck in hell: